Healing

“If you’re brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you.” -Elizabeth Gilbert

Seeking healing has been a pivotal part of my existence. What I’ve realized is that most healing is laid hold of through a breaking process. Toa Te Ching said once, “To be whole, let yourself break,” and I’ve found that this is true.

There is a lot of beauty to be found when we take the risk of being vulnerable, but it is often a painful choice and can be a lonely one. Seeking our healing is one of the most important things we can do for ourselves and for the world, and yet so many of us balk at it for fear of the pain involved in treading through our histories.

In going to Africa, I came into the understanding that we cannot give away to others what we have not received for ourselves. This led me to pursue my own inner healing without fail, which I believe has produced more value than all my years of service.

There have have been many different tools through which I believe God has led me into peace. Everything from counseling to Theophostic prayer, yoga to meditation, from taking time to grieve to understanding my Enneagram personality, from having a leadership coach, to receiving the message of the Father heart, from living in community, to solitude and silence and the slope of the mountains. I’m passionate about continuing to remain tender hearted even through the losses life has thrown at me.

I believe that when a heart changes, a life can change and I am interested in helping light a pathway so others can capitulate into grace and wholehearted living. This is why I write and why I coach people.

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